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Luca has started drinking water out of a cup! His ten month is approaching (the ninth), and I'd like to have him weaned onto grass-fed goats milk by a year (and a half if need be). As a mother, I feel a little sad, but as a woman, I know weaning will leave me feeling liberated. i've given a lot to this little being, and he's thrived. It's really something to know you grew this baby, and you were his only source of food and sustinance for the first 6 months. The gentle "glub, glub, glub" sounds as he drinks down his meal, and falls asleep in your arms, or the little smiles he gives while looking up at you. There's something really amazing at work, and I'm really happy I was fortunate enough to experiance it.

Breastfeeding wasn't easy for me. I was really shy about publicly breastfeeding, and so, for the first three months we didn't leave the house. At all, really. Luca was 9 pounds at birth, and needed to be fed constantly. I look back on the little book I kept track of the hours with, and I feel proud now, but at the time, I remember that I really felt isolated. When he was three weeks old, I remember wondering "Can I do this? Can I actually just give everything up for this little person?"

Is this really offensive?

Looking back, I should have gone out, and I should have felt comfortable breastfeeding whenever. wherever. I shouldn't have felt like if I forgot my cover, or it was too hot for one, I'd need to feed him in the bathroom at the Pine Center Mall or isolate myself. Now that he's 10 months old, he won't wear a cover, and I think I've come to the conclusion that people need to be exposed to breastfeeding. I still have people pointedly ask "have you given him a bottle yet?" Where does this come from? Why the glares? Why do we have such an anamosity towards mothers? I've never seen anything so beautiful as my son nursing. I can just feel the connection between us.

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While looking through photos, I found this gem.